Self Betrayal

 I am closing a long chapter tonight. A chapter of pain and a chapter of fear. I will no longer project my insecurities and fear onto those around me. I will not place blame for the life I fear was stolen from me. I will build myself up until my cup is overflowing and share the love that I made for myself. THAT is who I am, not the bitter voice in the back of my mind who places blame and spreads negativity through crude words. I will not lower myself to a place similar to that again. We deserve better from each other. My insecurity around unstable love spreads through me like wildfire and embodies a version of myself I do not wish to know. She does not get to represent me to this world and he who is unsure will not hold power over my emotions. I am much too brave, too smart, too beautiful, too full of love to let a man with unknown intentions tip the cup I have poured for myself. I will not betray me again.