Blooming flower

 

I have given more than I have ever owned; Mind, Body, and Soul Doubt lies within my efforts, Doubt in the worth of my kindness Spreading myself thin in order to fill the empty spaces Harboring the worry that I ask of too much from this world Will the deep care that I have shared be reciprocated? Or have I exaggerated the intent of my actions? I have given every last inch of myself in the search for the feeling of belonging, I must be too far gone

Hallowed out sorrow drained day by day  Our vitality is intertwined with an array of endless colors and accompanied by madness It runs down our frames like hot wax lit by the god of passion themselves Filling in each and every crack on our skin The day the sun stops rising for us will be the day we look down upon the mass destruction we have created Reforming the construction of mankind in the eyes of mercy  We will be better in union, simultaneously freeing our souls  

 

 Analyzing the words as I speak Years of unheard hurt and resilience scarcely piled up on the verge of tipping, Waiting for a chance to be felt in full. They live in a box with holes through the top to let the air in, leaving no room for expression. 

There is irony in your sad eyes  Empty promises leave your mouth drooling with sideways truths  The one you tore your heart out for would never sew it shut Still, you sit in regretful self pity with a mask over your face, mourning a loss that was always sure to come  Ripping your flower from her neglected soil, destroying the foundation from the roots of the one you once loved Blind to the true pain you have caused, with not a glimmer of empathy  

 

Like a raisin in the sun I have shriveled into a shell of myself Frail walls round the corners of my mind, there is no where to run on the inside, only endless battles to be fought  I am working hard to keep my inveterate illusions from surfacing Telling stories that were never meant to be told  I have told them they no longer have a place, but my fight will never be over As long as my memories are in place